Love and Marriage

Time seems to be flying by faster than I can keep up. Already in my third year of college, I feel like I’ve just started learning. Friends all around me are getting older and gaining responsibilties that still belong to my parents for myself. Case in point, my friend from work is getting married in a week. I’m sitting here watching college football games, waiting until the bachelor party begins. Although a long night of debauchery and drinking awaits, I can’t help but consider marriage, love, and the life ahead of me. My good friend Colin has been married since before I first met him, so I never really got to experience having a friend getting married. That will all change next weekend.

How can he be so sure this is what he wants? I’ve never been sure of anything in my life. Hell, I don’t even know what kind of beer or alcohol I’ll consume by the end of tonight. I have a hard time deciding what I’ll eat just minutes before i eat it. My major hasn’t been the same for a full year since I’ve been here. My last project due for class was filmed and entirely edited 12 hours before the class it was due in. (I’m working on getting the film off miniDV and onto a DVD so I can pull it and throw it on Viddler as soon as I get my tape back.) So all in all, I’ve never been one to plan ahead nor am I very decisive in any respect of my life. But being around all these “grown ups” tends to ground me. I’m not very mature. And I don’t know that I really need to be or want to be. But when I hang around all these people in my life, it makes me feel more mature by association, and I suppose that’s a good thing.